Farewell to a year undisclosed
Different people deal with their loss differently. Any kind of loss doesn’t really come with an instruction manual. Some might take days to get over what happened whereas others take years and to some perhaps a lifetime won’t be enough.
As writing down helps me recollect remnants of the bigger story; I arrest whatever precious I could hold back in my mind by noting it down.
can’t we have everything in life?
I won’t give binary yes or no type answer for this. But we can surely have “something” which we value the most and with time might end up calling it “everything”( subjectively). And we can only hope that this something is enough to make us feel contented. Anyway, doesn’t it feel like the year has passed by in a hurry? And here we’re floundering with our New Year resolutions and tethering on the dying ends of a year that can’t await to abandon us. What’s more important to you realizations or resolutions? Realization which are significantly analysed will always lead to relevant resolutions whereas discipline being the backbone of all resolutions tops the list.
still, you ‘ll get answers in 4 brackets — good, bad, great or worst; if you ask around. There ain’t different category available in the 21st century. Either a year is so good that you want it to stay the way it is right for the next year as well or it’s so bad that you want the ensuing year to change its entire script. Or it’s a choice between being so consummate that you don’t give a damn anymore and being so worst that you want to be woken up only on 1st of Jan.
Why is this so?
Our collaborative memory is frequently binary in nature, fully devoid of nuance just as how numbers obscure nuances when it comes to number of likes on any post on social media.
We remember what bothers to affect us deeply. Less oftenly do we go through a storm and know how exactly to sort the way out of it. likewise, rarely do we know how to deal with happiness, without becoming completely addicted to it. This peculiar behavior leaves us wanting for more and thus trapped in a perpetual state of neediness. No year is fulsome enough for us; it can perpetually get better. And we can only hope for the same.
So much of hodgepodge that we aren’t apprehensive of the way out of this maze. In the end, questions trump the answers and we’re bumbling with the topmost question of all what’s going to happen next?( back to vicious cycle)
Further than thinking-beings we humans are feeling-beings, perhaps that’s why for us memories exists outside of time. And there are scenes that our little retina beholds and iris never let go; which tend to scars us forever.
In a nutshell, losing out on something and gaining on other, is a part of larger story. One that, maybe we could still shape and reshape; fervently.
On that positive note, wishing you A Happy New Year!
Originally published at https://alfiyasheikh.substack.com.
